The first thing: the ego always seeks isolation, in a
thousand and one ways. When you become very rich, you become
isolated. When you become politically very powerful, you
become isolated. An Adolf Hitler is alone, more alone than a
yogi in the Himalayas. He has no friends, nobody equal to
him; he has no relationships. A very rich man reaches to a
Himalayan peak, where he is alone. Hence one seeks riches,
hence one seeks political power.
The ego is always in search of isolation, because when you
are alone, only the ego remains; the ego becomes the whole
world. Then there is nobody to fight with your ego; there is
nobody to humiliate you; there is nobody with whom you can
compare yourself. You become supreme in your own eyes. You
can believe in your ego absolutely; there will be no
distraction.
I am against isolation. In fact you have to dissolve the
ego, not to isolate it. You are not to become an island,
independent, separate from the whole: you have to become a
part of the continent, one with it. How can you be one with
reality in isolation? The reality needs participation, not
isolation. That's why the greatest Samadhi occurs in love,
not in isolation. And the greatest of yoga is love, because
in love you have to dissolve yourself, in love you have to
die, in love you have to melt, merge.
I teach love, not isolation. Isolation is the way of the
world, not the way of religion. But it happens: you have
been seeking riches, political power, possessions; then you
become frustrated; then you turn to the Himalayas - you
renounce the world. You don't renounce the ego, you renounce
the world. I teach you: renounce the ego, don't renounce the
world.
The ego is very subtle. You could not attain to political
power, then you try to attain to religious power. You call
it Kundalini, but still it is power, still it is something
that will make you separate, unique, independent, an island.
If your religion is also a search for power, then isolation
is needed.
But religion is not a search for power; it is a search for
silence. It is a search for peace; it is a search for inner
poverty - what Jesus calls 'poor in spirit'. It is a search
to be, in such a way that there is no difference between to
be and not to be. Non-being becomes your only being.
This is possible not through independence, this is possible
only if you realize interdependence. These three words have
to be remembered: dependence, independence, and
interdependence.
Dependent you are; independence you seek; interdependence I
teach. Dependent you are, because everywhere you will feel
you are dependent, everywhere a limitation comes in. If you
love somebody you become dependent on him or on her.
Everywhere life brings dependence. Then the idea arises that
in the world you can never be independent. Escape from the
world. You can escape, but independent you can never be: you
can only be deceived. Even in the Himalayas you are not
independent; you are still dependent on the sun. If the sun
does not rise, you will be dead immediately. You will be
dependent on the oxygen and air: if the oxygen disappears,
you will be dead. You will be dependent on water; you will
be dependent on a thousand and one things.
Dependence has to be understood, not to be avoided. If you
understand dependence, you will understand immediately that
hidden behind it is interdependence. Dependence is just a
misinterpretation. Those who have known have also known that
you are not dependent on the sun; the sun is also dependent
on you. Without you the sun cannot be, as you cannot be
without the sun. Even a small blade of grass will be missed
from existence; the existence will never be complete without
it. A gap, something missing, will be there.
So don't think that the stars are great, and a blade of
grass is very small and tiny. In existence, nothing is great
and nothing is small, because existence is one.
This is what is meant by ecology: interdependence. And
ecology is not only of this earth, it is of the totality.
Ecology is a spiritual phenomenon.
You are misinterpreting. You are interpreting
interdependence as dependence. That is a wrong notion, and
because of that wrong notion, a wrong desire arises: how to
be independent. Out of one error another error arises. You
cannot be; and if somebody teaches you independence - there
are people who teach this - they are teaching sheer
stupidity. You are part, you are one with the whole, you are
a wave in the ocean. The wave cannot be independent. How can
you take the wave apart from the ocean? And I tell you, the
ocean also cannot be separate from the wave. Without waves
the ocean will also disappear. The waves cannot be without
the ocean; the ocean cannot be without the waves, because
waves are nothing but the ocean waving. Because of language
the separation arises. You say the waves and the ocean; in
fact, there are not the waves and the ocean, it is all one -
the ocean waving. Waves are not things... a process, a
movement, a breathing of the ocean. You and your breathing
are not two things: you are the breathing, the breathing is
you. You breathe and the breathing breathes you - they are
inseparable.
Life is one. For this oneness,. interdependence, God is
another name. Love is still another name, and even better
than God, because God has been destroyed by the theologians.
Love is still pure and virgin.
So the first thing to be understood: I don't teach
isolation, because I don't teach the ego. Your so-called
yoga masters are all more or less egoists.
The ego goes on seeking different ways to be enhanced. In
the name of yoga many ego-trips goes on. Don't become a part
of it. I don't teach isolation, because I want you to leave
the ego, and not the world. The world is not the problem.
The world is tremendously beautiful; it is pure joy; nothing
is wrong in it. Something is wrong in you, not in the world.
Drop the wrongness in you; don't renounce the world. I teach
you to celebrate the world, not to renounce it. I affirm
life, and affirm it unconditionally; and I say to you that
those who tell you to renounce it are the poisoners, and
that from the very beginning they are teaching you something
absolutely wrong. They are saying something is wrong in the
world: they call it Maya. I call you Maya - not the world.
The ego is the only Maya, the only illusion - not these
trees, they are simply beautiful; not these flowers, not
these birds, not this sky, not this sun, these stars - no,
they are simply beautiful; they are divine and holy.
You are the Maya. So, if you want to leave anything, leave
yourself. If you want to renounce anything, renounce
yourself. And the only way, the only way to renounce oneself
is to celebrate. Because whenever you are happy, you are
not; whenever you are sad, you are; whenever you are
depressed, you are; whenever you are delighting, you are
not. In bliss, in ecstasy, you disappear. In sadness and
sorrow, you again appear. Watch. When you laugh, you are
not. In real laughter, you simply are not. It comes out from
somewhere you know not of. It comes from beyond you. You
don't laugh: when laughter is there, you are not.
Dance. When the dance really possesses you, when there
really is a dance, the dancer is no more, the dancer has
disappeared; he doesn't exist. The dance is so tremendously
real that the unreal has to disappear before it. The unreal
cannot face the real; the false cannot confront the real;
the lie cannot face the truth; the darkness cannot encounter
light. When the real arises - and the real is when you are
part of the whole, whether in laughter, in dancing, in love
- whenever you are part of the whole, the real is. Separate,
you are Maya. One with the whole, you are God.
When you are alone, a false type of 'religiosity' arises.
Because whenever you are alone, there is nobody to provoke
your anger, nobody to create an opportunity where you can
become sad, nobody to bring your own false faces before you.
You are alone: anger does not arise. Not that anger has
disappeared - simply the situation for anger is not there.
You are full of anger, but nobody is there to insult you, to
hurt you. Only the opportunity is missing. Come back to the
world: live fifty years in the Himalayas - when you come
back to the world, immediately you will find anger is there,
as fresh as ever; even maybe more powerful now, because of
fifty years accumulated anger, accumulated poison. Then one
becomes afraid to come back to the world.
Go to the Himalayas: you will see many people hanging around
there. Cowards, they cannot come back to the world. What
sort of purity is this, which is afraid? What sort of
celibacy is this, which is afraid? What sort of reality is
this, which is afraid of Maya, of illusion? What sort of
light is this, which is afraid of darkness: that it comes to
the dark, the darkness will be powerful and may destroy it?
Has darkness ever destroyed any light? But they go on
hanging around. The more they hang around there, the more
they become incapable of coming back to the world - because
there in the Himalayas they can have their beautiful image:
nobody else to destroy it. In the world it is difficult.
Somebody, from somewhere, treads to your toe; somebody, from
somewhere, hurts you. You have to drop anger. My whole
effort is so that you change.
Don't try to change the scene, please change yourself. The
change of the scene not going to help anybody; it has never
helped anybody.
And you think:
Even if you meditate twenty-four hours a day it is not going
to help unless meditation becomes a way of life - not that
you meditate. Whether you meditate one hour, or two hours,
or three hours, or six hours, or many hours - you may
meditate twenty-four hours: you will go mad, but you will
not attain to Samadhi. Samadhi is when you completely forget
what meditation is. You don't meditate; just the way you
live is meditative. The way you may, the way you walk, the
way you eat: that becomes meditative. Meditation becomes a
quality of your life; it is not a question of quantity.
Don't be quantitative. Don't think that if you meditate
more, then more meditation will happen to you... foolish.
The more is not the question - quality, not quantity.
Meditation is not money that you can go on gathering and
piling up. Meditation is a way of being: you don't pile it
up, you cannot accumulate it, it is not a wealth. It is the
way you are.
So whatsoever you are doing here are really not meditations.
They are just situations through which I would like you to
see; they are just preparations for the meditation. We call
them meditations, because they prepare you for the right
meditation. That is just clearing the ground, just cleansing
the ground: they are not real meditations, because real
meditations cannot be done, as real love cannot be done. It
happens. You are simply cleaning your mindbody; you are
purifying yourself so that you can become a vehicle, so that
you can be possessed. Then whatsoever you do, you do
meditatively.
There have been stories of people who are robbers, or
butchers, who have attained to enlightenment. But they
attained, because whatsoever they did was meditative.
There are stories of people who were robbers and thieves,
who have also attained. What was their secret? Just the
same. And I know people who have lived in a Himalayan
retreat for their whole life, and have not attained to
anything. It is not a question of quantity - how much you
do. the question is how you do it - not how much: what
quality you bring to it. You can just walk and it can be
meditative; you can just sit and it can be meditative; you
can eat and it can be meditative; and you can just take a
shower and it can be meditative. Try to understand this.
Meditation should become a climate around you, a milieu in
which you live. And wherever you go, you carry your climate.
This is my whole effort: that's why I don't send you to
isolation, I don't send you to mountains so that you can
meditate the whole day; because that would give you a wrong
notion about it, the notion of quantity
You can never go deeper and deeper if you don't understand what distraction is. If you are trying to avoid distraction, you can never go deeper; because wherever you are, the distraction will follow you - because it is in you.
Distraction is not something objective, not there outside you; it is something in you. If you cannot accept, you will be distracted; if you accept, distraction disappears.
lf you accept, nothing can distract you. It is the very rejection in you that creates the distraction. So, if you want to meditate without distraction, don't reject anything. the traffic noise has to be accepted - it is part of this world, and perfectly okay; the child crying and weeping is part of this world, and perfectly okay. Once you say that everything is okay, just watch the feeling that everything is okay and accept it. Something within you melts. Then nothing distracts. And unless this happens, you can go anywhere you like and you will be distracted by one thing or another.
It is not necessary at all. Not only is it not necessary, it is harmful because who is withdrawing? In withdrawal, the ego will be strengthened. Don't withdraw; rather, melt. I teach you just the opposite. Melt.
No... if you have not been that way from the very beginning,
it is not going to happen suddenly in the end. If it has
been that way from the very beginning only then will it
flower in the end. If you withdraw from the world, you will
never be capable of coming back to the world, and being in
the world and not of it. No; because it cannot happen
suddenly; it is a gradual process. By and by you have to
imbibe the spirit of it. It is just like a small seed
sprouting, becoming a plant, and becoming a tree. You say
that suddenly - first, we will withdraw from the world, and
then we will come back to the world. In the very withdrawal
you will be disconnected from the world; you will become
afraid to come back.
Go and look at Catholic monasteries, Hindu monasteries:
people have become afraid; they don't come back. There are
monasteries in Europe where, once you enter, you never get
out of the monastery again until you die. Why do these
monasteries exist? There are monasteries where never in
their history has any woman entered... Catholic monks. There
are monasteries of nuns where no man has ever entered - for
centuries. What type of crystallisation is this? Fear
crystallised, nothing else - withdrawal crystallised. And
they all go on saying that one should live in the world and
be not of it. But that has not happened. Look at the Jain
monks: they are afraid of everything. For fifty years a man
has been a monk - he cannot touch a woman's hand; he cannot
look at a woman eye to eye. What type of Samadhi is this?
Maybe suicide, but not Samadhi. What type of attainment is
this? I cannot call it any attainment. It is not that
Kundalini has arisen: Kundalini has slept completely, died
completely. The fire has disappeared. There is no fire.
If you really want to come to that beautiful space where you
are in the world and not of it, then you have to be that way
from the very beginning; you have to remain in the world and
work it out. It is difficult, I know. That's why people
escape to the forest, because that looked simple. You think
those who have escaped from the world are very brave? Then
you are in a totally wrong notion. They are cowards. They
have escape because they could not cope; they have escaped
because they could not grow; they have escaped because the
world was too much for them. But they have decorated their
escape beautifully; and for centuries those cowards have
been writing scriptures and commentaries, because they had
nothing else to do; and they go on doing that. Their whole
energy has been wasted in verbalisation; and they go on
convincing other cowards.
Religion is courage; it is not cowardice. Be brave in facing
the world. And whatsoever you want to be in the end, be from
the very beginning: that is the only way. Carry it from the
very first step, because the first step is the last step
also.
There is no need to avoid anything. All effort to avoid is
out of fear. Live it; don't avoid it. Live the Maya, and you
will come to know reality, because this Maya is also a
hidden reality. The appearance is also of the reality. Let
me repeat it: the appearance is also of the reality. Don't
avoid it; otherwise reality will be avoided in it. Go deeply
into it. Live it, enjoy it, penetrate it. Hindus have called
Maya the shroud of Brahma, his clothing: don't avoid it. If
you avoid my clothes and escape, you will be escaping from
me also. You will have to accept my clothes, you will have
to come closer and closer; only then can you know me, who is
hidden in the clothes.
God is hidden in his Maya. Maya means his magic. God is
hidden in his magic. The word 'magic' comes from Maya. God
is hidden in these flowers, in these trees, in these rocks;
in you, in me. From every eye he is looking out, from every
flower it is his fragrance that is coming out. This is the
way he is; this is his appearance. Avoid it, and you will
avoid him; enter into it, enter into the fragrance of the
flower, and you will find the fragrance of God hidden. Enter
any human being in deep love, compassion, humbleness, and
behind the body you will find him embodied, and behind the
eyes you will find him looking at you. Look into somebody's
eyes, and go deeper and deeper and deeper; and suddenly he
is there, in his absolute beauty and purity.
I don't say avoid; that word is dirty for me. I say enter.
The Maya of the temple of God. Enter into it: the world is
the temple of God. The body is the temple of God: enter into
it. Find as many ways as you can find to enter into it. Try
to find God from everywhere and through everything, and you
will find him everywhere and in everything. Says Jesus,
"Underneath every stone I am hidden. Dig the rock up and you
will find me there. Break wood and you will find me there."
Everywhere he is. He is the very existence itself, the very
is-ness.
Don't try to avoid. Escape, avoid, renunciation, isolation,
are wrong words: don't use them. Let them not be part of the
vocabulary, your vocabulary; drop them out. Find out
positive terms, find out positive words: involvement,
commitment, enjoyment, celebration, delight, ecstasy - and
you will be on the right path.
The reality and the illusion are not opposites. The God and
his world are not opposites. The God is hidden in the world,
and the reality is hiding behind the appearance; and the
appearance is also beautiful.
The appearance is also beautiful. Not only is the soul
beautiful, the body also is beautiful. And it has to be so,
because the soul is hidden behind it. The soul goes on being
expressed from the body in millions of ways. The body is
just like a glass. Behind it is the name, and the flame goes
on spreading its rays outside the glass. Whenever you see a
beautiful person, it simply hints, it simply gives you an
indication, that behind it there is some unknown beauty
hiding. That's why a beautiful body attracts - it is
natural; a beautiful flower attracts - it is natural;
because it is simply an indication, a natural indication, an
invitation, that something beautiful is hidden behind. Come,
investigate me. Come. the beautiful body attracts because of
the beautiful soul: you attain to a beautiful body if you
attain to a beautiful soul - it is not just coincidence; it
is not chance. The more beautiful you become inside, the
more beautiful you become on the outside also. If a very
ugly body becomes more and more deeply involved in
meditation, you will suddenly see the ugliness changing, and
behind the ugliness, beauty being expressed more and more.
Once the innermost core becomes beautiful, the outer
periphery follows it.
The appearance is also beautiful.
This is what I call enlightenment.
My enlightenment is paradoxical. It has to be so, because it
is not logical. It is bigger than logic. That's why I go on
teaching meditation and love together. Love is part of the
Maya, of the appearance; meditation is part of reality, of
God. I go on teaching both. I say, "Love," so that you can
penetrate a body deeply, so that you can become aware of the
soul which is hidden behind it. And, "Meditate," so that you
can attain to your own innermost soul. And let both be
together: don't create any dichotomy between the two. It has
always been a dichotomy. People who have been teaching
meditation have always been against love; and poets and
artists, who have been teaching love, have always been
against meditation.
I bring the greatest synthesis that is possible in the world
to you, the synthesis of love and meditation. And I teach
you to grow in both ways. Move in both dimensions: move
inwards through meditation, move outwards through love. Go
deeper inside yourself, and go farther and farther to the
other shore also - so that you don't become lopsided.
Meditators who don't love become lopsided. Their inner being
becomes rich, but their outer being becomes very poor.
Lovers who are not also meditators - their outer being
becomes richer, but their inner being becomes very poor. I
would like you to become richer in both ways love, and
meditate.