Herman Hesse
Herman Hesse's
Siddhartha is one of the very rare books, something from his
innermost depth. Never again could Hesse bring another jewel more
beautiful and more precious than Siddhartha; as if he was spent in
it. He could not reach higher. Siddhartha is Hesse's height.
Siddhartha is saying to Buddha "Whatsoever you say is true. How can
it be otherwise? You have explained everything that was never
explained before; you have made everything clear. You are the
greatest teacher there is. But you attained to this enlightenment on
your own. You were not a disciple. You were not following anybody;
you searched alone. You came to this enlightenment alone, walking a
path, not following anybody." "I must leave you," says Siddhartha to
Gautam Buddha, "not to find a greater teacher than you, because
there is none, but to seek the truth on my own. Only with this
teaching I agree" - because this is Buddha's teaching
"Be a light unto yourself." Follow nobody; seek and search, but
follow nobody. "With this I agree," says Siddhartha, "so I will have
to go."
He
is sad. It must have been very difficult for him to leave Buddha,
but he has to go - to seek, to search, or to die. He has
to find the path.
What is my comment on it? There are two types of people in the
world. Ninety-nine percent who cannot go alone.... Alone, if they
try, they will remain fast asleep for ever and ever. Alone, left to
themselves, the possibility is nil. They will need somebody to wake
them; they will need somebody to shake them out of their sleep, to
shock them. They will need somebody to help them. But there is
another type also, that is only one percent, which can find its way
on its own.
Buddha belongs to the first type, the rare type, the one percent.
Siddhartha also belongs to the same type. He understands Buddha, he
loves Buddha, he reveres him. He feels the sadness and the pain and
the heartache when leaving him, but he knows he has to leave. He has
to find his own way. He has to seek the truth on his own. He cannot
become a shadow; that is not possible for him, that is not his type.
But that does not mean that everybody has to seek on his own.
In this century there have been two very important persons
Gurdjieff
and Krishnamurti. They are the types. Krishnamurti goes on insisting
everybody has to be on his own. Alone one has to seek and alone one
has to reach. And Gurdjieff insisted that schoolwork is needed - alone you will never be able to escape out of the prison.
All the prisoners have to come together to fight with the forces
which are guarding, which have made the prison. And all the
prisoners have to get together to find ways and means and methods - and they need somebody's support who is outside the prison.
Otherwise they will not find the way; they will not find how to get
out. Somebody who was in the prison and has somehow reached out, his
help is needed that is the Master.
Who is right? Krishnamurti's followers won't listen to Gurdjieff,
Gurdjieff's followers won't listen to Krishnamurti, and the
followers go on thinking that the other is wrong. But I tell you,
both are right because humanity has two types.
And none is better. Don't try to evaluate. Somebody is a woman and
somebody is a man - nobody is higher and nobody is
lower; different types of biology. Somebody is who can find alone
and somebody is who needs help - nobody is higher and nobody is
lower; different types of spirituality.
The person who cannot find alone is the person for whom surrender
will be the path, love will be the path, devotion will be the path,
trust will be the path. Don't think that trust is easy. It is as
difficult as to follow on your own, sometimes even more difficult.
And there are people who will follow alone.
Just a few days before, a young man came and he asked me, "Can I not
search on my own? Need I be a sannyasin? Need I be a disciple to
you? Can I not follow on my own, can I not search on my own?" I
said, "Why have you come to ask me? You are not the type who follows
on his own. Even this you cannot decide. What more will you be able
to decide on your own? This too you have come to ask me. This I have
to decide - already you are a disciple!" But he argued;
he said, "But you never were a disciple to any Master." I said.
"That's right, but I never went to ask any. Even for this, I never
went to ask any."
And this is my understanding that people who have followed on their
own rarely achieve, very rarely - because many times
your ego will say that you are the rare type, that you can go on
your own, alone, no need to follow anybody: and your ego will
deceive you. You may not follow anybody; you are following your own
ego, your own image, and it is going to lead you into a thousand and
one ditches. You are following yourself, in fact. You are not moving
on your own; you are following yourself. And you are a confused
chaos. Where will you go? How will you go?
Be very clear about it. Listen to your innermost depths. Is it the
ego which says don't be a follower? If it is the ego then you are
not going to be going anywhere. You are trapped, already trapped.
Then it is good to follow somebody. Find a school, find a Master.
Drop this ego because this ego will lead you into more and more
nonsense and rubbish.
Look at Siddhartha's words. He says, "This is why I am going on my
way - not to seek another and better teacher, for there
are none better...." He loves Buddha tremendously; he respects him
tremendously. He says, "Whatsoever you say is absolutely clear.
Nobody has taught in such a clear way ever before. Whatsoever you
say about the small and the big, it is absolutely comprehensible,
appeals, converts, creates a sympathy for it. I KNOW," he says, "you
have attained. I am not going away from you because I suspect you,
no. I respect you. I have seen the glimpse through you; I have
looked through you into reality. I am grateful, but I have to go."
His type is not of that who can become a follower. He goes into the
world, he moves into the world. He lives with a prostitute. He tries
to know what indulgence is. He learns the ways of the world and the
ways of sin, and by and by, out of many sufferings, many
disappointments, frustrations, the consciousness arises in him. Long
is his path, but he goes on unflinching, unwavering. Whatsoever the
cost, he is ready either to die or to attain. He has understood his
type.
To understand one's type is the most basic thing in spiritual
search. If you are confused about what type you are - because people come to me; they say, "You say to understand the type
is the most important thing, but we don't know what type we are" - then remain certain: you are not that type who can go on his
own. Because you cannot be certain even about your type, that too
has to be decided by somebody else, then you will not be able to go
alone. Then drop that ego. That is simply ego.
It has happened.... Pitfalls are many. If you go and watch
Krishnamurti's disciples you will see almost all the wrong type
gather together. Not people like Siddhartha - because
why should they go to Krishnamurti? Wrong people - who
need a teacher - and still are not ready to drop their
egos; you will find them around Krishnamurti. It is a beautiful
arrangement. Krishnamurti says, "I am not a teacher"; so their egos
are intact. He does not say, "Surrender"; so there is no trouble. In
fact he enhances their egos: that "you are to find your path alone."
They feel beautiful, and they go on listening to Krishnamurti for
years and years and years.
There are people who have been listening to him for forty years.
Sometimes they come to me and I ask them. "If really you have
understood him, then why don't you stop going to him? - because he says there is no teacher and he is not your teacher and
there is nothing to be taught and nothing to be learned; one has to
search through life through the hard way; one has to reach oneself.
Why have you wasted forty years?" And I can see on their faces the
problem is they need a Master but they don't want to surrender. So
this is a good compromise: Krishnamurti says no need to surrender,
and he goes on teaching, and they go on listening and learning.
With Gurdjieff you will find a better group than with Krishnamurti - people who can surrender, who are ready to surrender. There
are loopholes also because there are people who don't want to do
anything, and when they don't want to do anything they think this is
surrender. There are people who are suckers, who don't want to do
anything. They say, "We surrender. Now this is your responsibility.
Now if something goes wrong you are responsible." But Gurdjieff
won't allow such people. He was very hard. He will create so many
difficulties for them that they will escape within hours. Only very
rare people will be there who have really surrendered.
For example, one man came, a musician, a very accomplished musician
who was already known, famous for his art, and Gurdjieff says, "Stop
music and start digging holes in the garden." And twelve hours per
day. That man has never done such hard work. He has always played on
the organ. His hands are delicate; they are not those of a laborer:
they are not of a manual worker. Delicate, feminine hands, they know
only one work - they can touch the keys of the organ.
That's all he has done his whole life, and now this man says.... But
he started digging the next morning.
By the evening comes Gurdjieff and he says, "Good, very good. Now
throw the earth back into the holes. Fill the holes. And unless you
have filled them don't go to sleep." So again four, five hours he
has to fill all the holes - as they were - because in the morning he will come to see. In the morning he is
there and he says, "Good. Now dig other holes." And this goes on for
three months.
Absurd activity, but if you have surrendered, you have surrendered.
You don't need to bother about what he is doing. You have to
surrender reasoning.
After three months that man has grown into a totally different
being. Then Gurdjieff said, "Now you can play music." A new music
has arisen; it was never there before. He has touched something of
the unknown. He followed, he trusted, he went with Gurdjieff the
whole way.
People who are trying to deceive will not stay there: they will
immediately escape. With Krishnamurti they can stay, because nothing
to work, nothing to meditate.... And Krishnamurti is right! But he
is right only for one percent, and this is the problem that one
percent will never go to listen to him. That one percent moves on
his own. If he somehow comes across Krishnamurti, he will thank him.
This is what Siddhartha did.
Siddhartha had come across Buddha. He listened to him, he felt the
beauty, he felt the tremendous significance of whatsoever he was
saying, he felt this man, he felt his attainment, he felt his
enlightenment, his meditative energy touched his heart also, near
him he felt the call of the unknown: but he understands his type.
With deep respect, with deep love, in sadness he departs. He says,
"I would have liked being with you, but I know I have to go." He
goes not because of the ego. He goes not to seek another greater
teacher. He goes because he knows that he cannot be a follower.
There is no resistance in him; he listened without resistance; he
understood Buddha. He understood so totally, that's why he had to
go.
If Krishnamurti is understood really then you have to go. Then he is
not the man to be around; then you have to go. You can be with
Gurdjieff. You cannot be with Krishnamurti, because his whole
teaching is to go alone, follow no path - truth is
pathless, the gate is gateless - the method is only one
and that is to be aware. Nothing else is to be done. Once you have
understood, you will feel thankful, you will pay your respects, and
you will move on your way. But this is only for one percent of the
people.
And remember, if you are not of that type, don't pretend to be,
because you cannot change your type. That is impossible. You have to
use your type, and through using your type you have to go beyond.