The most important question that man has ever encountered is
"What is meditation?" The English word meditation is not so pregnant
with meaning as the original Sanskrit word dhyana.
'Meditation' has a wrong connotation. The moment you say meditation,
immediately the idea arises "On what?" Meditation, in the English
sense of the word, is always on some object. But in the Sanskrit
sense of the word dhyana, there is no object as such; on the
contrary, to be absolutely objectless, to be utterly empty of all
content, is dhyana.
Hence, when Buddha's message reached China, the word was left
untranslated, because there was no equivalent in the Chinese
language either. And the Chinese language is far richer than any
other language of the world. Yet there was no word which could be
called synonymous with the word dhyana - for a simple reason: such a
word was missing because dhyana has never been practiced anywhere
else except in this country. This country has contributed only one
thing to the world, and that is the art of dhyana. And that one
contribution is enough, more than enough.
The whole of science can be put on one side and still it will not be
more weighty than the single word dhyana. All the knowledge of the
world can be put on one side, but the word dhyana will still weigh
more. It has infinite significance, it is a totally new vision of
consciousness: a consciousness without content, a consciousness
without any thought, desire; an ocean without ripples, waves,
utterly silent and still, reflecting the whole sky with all the
stars. Such is dhyana.
In China it was left untranslated, but when you write a word from
one language in another language, even if you don't translate it, it
changes its color, its form. That's natural; it has happened many
times.
Now, you know the word India; it is simply a different pronunciation
of Sindu, the great river that now passes through Pakistan. When the
Persians crossed that river for the first time they pronounced it
Indu not Sindu. From Indu it became Indus, from Indus it became
India. And then some other language group passed through and
pronounced it not Sindu but Hindu; hence Hindu, Hinduism, Hindustan.
But they have all arisen out of the name Sindu. Now it seems so far
away that Hindu and India seem to be not related at all.
When the Indian constitution was being prepared, there was great
discussion about what to call this country: India or Hindustan?
Great controversy over the same word! - because they both arise from
the same word, the name of the great river that now passes through
Pakistan, Sindu. It traveled in one direction and became Hindu and
Hindustan, traveled in another direction and became Indus, India.
The same has happened with dhyana. Buddha never spoke Sanskrit; that
was also one of his originalities. In India Sanskrit has always been
the language of the priests, of the cultured, of the sophisticated.
Buddha was the first to bring about a radical change: he started
talking in the language of the people.
Sanskrit has never been a language of the people, it has always been
the language of the highest strata of the society. And they have
guarded it with great care, so that it never falls into the hands of
the common people. It has been one of the strategies of all the
priests all over the world that their language should not be
understood by the common people, because if their language is
understood by the common people then they will be exposed - because
what they go on saying is simple, very ordinary, but in a language
that you don't understand it appears as if they are saying something
superb, something very supernatural.
If you read the Vedas in your language you will be surprised: there
is not much there - not more than one percent of the sutras is
significant, ninety-nine percent is simply rubbish. But if you hear
it chanted in Sanskrit you will be enchanted, you will be simply
hypnotized. So is the case with the Koran. If you hear it in Arabic
it will have something magical. Translated into your own language
you will be puzzled: it looks very ordinary. Priests have always
been aware that their scriptures can be valued and appreciated and
respected and worshipped only if they are not translated into the
language of ordinary people.
Buddha is one of the revolutionaries in that sense, too. He started
talking in the language of the people. The language of the people
that surrounded Buddha was Pali; in Pali dhyana became jhana - more
rounded, more used. When a word is used more, it starts having a
roundness to it, it loses its corners. It is like a rock in the
flowing river: slowly slowly it becomes rounder, softer; it attains
to beauty, it attains to a lovely farm. Dhyana is harsh, jhana is
round, soft, easy to pronounce. So when Buddhist messengers reached
China, jhana became ch'an in Chinese. And when the same word reached
Japan from China it became ZEN. The root is dhyana.
In English also there is no equivalent word. 'Meditation' can be
used because that is the most approximate, but that has to be used
with very great care, because 'meditation' itself means meditating
upon something, and dhyana means being in meditation, not meditating
upon something. It is not a relationship with an object, it is
absolute emptiness; no object, not even God. Simple objectlessness,
the mirror reflecting nothing, the mirror simply in its nature, as
it is. When you come to that simplicity, to that innocence, you are
in meditation.
You cannot do meditation, you can only be in meditation. It is not a
question of doing something, it is a question of being. It is not an
act but a state.
The disciple asks Bodhidharma, the master:
He must have been puzzled. Many people ask me, "On what should we
meditate? On what form? What should we visualize? What mantra should
we chant, or what thought form should we create inside our minds, so
that we can focus on it?" They are asking about concentration but
they think they are asking about meditation. And there are thousands
of books written on concentration but they all go on using the word
meditation. This is one of the most misinterpreted words - and the
experience is so rare that you will never understand that somebody
is using the word in an absolutely wrong sense.
I have come across hundreds of books which go on using the word
meditation as if it were a higher state of concentration. It has
nothing to do with concentration; in fact, it is just the opposite
of concentration. In concentration there is an object. You have to
focus on the object, you have to be absolutely concentrated on it,
your whole consciousness falling on the object, not missing the
object even for a single moment: that is concentration.
Concentration has its own value. It is a great method in the hands
of science, but it has no religious value at all. It has scientific
value, it has artistic value, but no religious value at all. Science
cannot move a single step without concentration. Art cannot create
without concentration.
The artist becomes so concentrated on his painting, or sculpture, or
music, that he forgets the whole world. In his concentration
everything else is excluded, bracketed out; only one thing remains
in his mind, as if the whole world consisted of that one thing. That
thing is the whole world for the moment; nothing else exists.
One very famous book, one of the greatest ever written,
is a commentary on the Brahma Sutras written by
Vrihaspati. The name of the commentary is very strange:
the name of the commentary is Bhamati. It is strange
because it has nothing to do with the Brahma Sutras, one
of the greatest expositions of the philosophy of
advaita, nondualism.
Bhamati is the name of Vrihaspati's wife. What
connection can there be between the commentary on the
Brahma Sutras and Vrihaspati's wife? There is some
secret hidden in it. Vrihaspati must have been a man of
deep concentration - he was a great philosopher. He got
married because his father was getting old and he wanted
Vrihaspati to be married. And in the old days obedience
was the simple way; it was naturally so - people used to
follow their parents' wishes. There was no question of
saying no, so Vrihaspati said yes.
He was married to Bhamati but he was not a man who
needed a wife or needed a family. His whole
concentration was on the great commentary that he was
writing on the Brahma Sutras. He was so absorbed that he
brought the wife home and forgot all about her.
The wife took every care of Vrihaspati. That too is no
longer possible - who can take care of such a husband
who has completely forgotten her? He had no idea who she
was or what her name was. He had never even asked her
name. She served him like a shadow. She never came in
front of him because he might get distracted, disturbed.
And he was continuously writing his commentary. He was
in a hurry because he had taken a vow in his heart that
the day the commentary was complete he would renounce
the world, and he wanted to renounce the world as soon
as possible. Day in, day out, he was writing. Late into
the night he would go on writing. Sometimes the candle
burned out, and the wife would come up from behind and
just put a candle there. Once in a while he will see the
wife's hand bringing food, taking away the thali and the
plates, but he was so concentrated on his work he never
inquired. "Who is this woman?"
It is a beautiful story; whether it really happened or
not is not the point. But I don't think that wives could
have been so nice even in those old days. One hopes...
but hopes are never fulfilled.
Years passed and the night came when the commentary was
completed. Vrihaspati closed the book, the wife came and
removed the candle. Now he was free from the commentary
and the absorption. He asked the woman, "Who are you?
And why do you go on serving me like this"
The woman said, "I am absolutely blessed that at least
you ask my name. It is more than I could have asked for.
You must have forgotten... many days have passed. And
you were so absorbed in your work, how can you remember,
how can one expect to remember? I am Bhamati; you
married me a few years ago. Since then I have been
serving you."
And tears rolled down Vrihaspati's cheeks, and he said,
"Now it is too late because I have taken a vow that the
day the commentary was completed I would renounce the
world. It is too late; I cannot be a husband to you
anymore. I have renounced the world. Closing the book is
closing this chapter of my life. I am now a sannyasin.
But I feel tremendously grateful to you. You are a rare
woman. Just out of gratitude I will call my commentary
Bhamati."
Hence his commentary on the Brahma Sutras is called
Bhamati. On the surface there is no relation between
Bhamati and the Brahma Sutras, but that is what
Vrihaspati called it. And he said to his wife, "That way
your story will be remembered for centuries." Yes, many
centuries have passed, and I have remembered it, and now
you will remember it. A rare woman, and a rare man, and
a rare story....
This is concentration, absolute concentration. It is possible to
be so concentrated on something that everything else is excluded. It
is said of Thomas Alva Edison, a great scientist, the greatest,
because he discovered at least one thousand things alone.... Nobody
else has done so much. Many things that you are using are Edison's
inventions: the electric bulb, the gramophone, the radio - many
things.
He used to become so absorbed in his work that once he forgot his
own name. It is very difficult to forget your own name even if you
want to. It becomes so ingrained, it goes so deep in the memory that
it becomes part of your unconscious. Even in your sleep you remember
your name. If you all fall asleep here - as you can if I go on and
on talking about meditation.... What will you do? Where will you
escape? You will start falling asleep. If you all fall asleep and
suddenly I call somebody's name - I call, "Mukta!" - then nobody
else will hear; only Mukta will hear. Mukta will open her eyes and
will say, "Who is disturbing? And why me?" Even in deep sleep you
remember your name. It is very difficult to forget it. But Edison
once forgot his own name. Somebody else had to remind him.
During the first world war he was standing in a queue; when his name
was called, he looked here and there. The clerk called again, then a
man standing behind him told him, "As far as I know from the
newspapers - I have seen your picture - you appear to be Thomas Alva
Edison."
He said, "Yes, you are right! I was thinking, who is this man?
Sounds as if I have heard this name before. I can recognize the name
but I completely forgot that this is my own name." He said, "I am
very sorry."
This can happen to a scientist. He used to keep notes, because he
was working on so many things together, but then he would forget
where he had put the notes. And he would use pieces of paper - that
was his habit, something eccentric - just small pieces of paper to
write great things on. His whole study was full of pieces of paper,
and every piece of paper had to be preserved because nobody knew
what he had written on it. His wife had to take every care that no
piece was ever lost, because he would ask, "Where is that piece of
paper?" and then search for hours, because there were so many pieces
of paper.
His wife told him, "Why not use a copybook?"
He said, "That's such a great idea, why didn't you tell me before?"
So he used to carry a notebook but then he would forget the notebook
- where he kept it. His concentration was so total on whatsoever he
was working. It is not meditation, remember.
Science needs concentration. Meditation is just the opposite of
concentration. Concentration means bracketing out the whole world
and pouring your consciousness on a single object. Meditation means
no object at all; nothing to be excluded, nothing to be bracketed
out. One simply relaxes, open, alert, available - available to all
that is. The distant call of the cuckoo, and the noise of the train,
and somebody honking his horn, and a child giggling. One is
available to all and yet one is far away, transcendental.
The first question the disciple asks is:
He can understand what meditation is, because then he will be
able to understand it as concentration. But the condition is 'in
emptiness'; that creates the problem. 'Meditation in emptiness' -
you have to be utterly empty, no thought, no desire, no object, no
content of the mind. You are just an emptiness; everything passes
through you with no hindrance, no block. Winds come and go through
the empty temple, sunrays come and go through the empty temple,
people come and pass through the empty temple, and the temple
remains empty. Everything comes and goes like shadows passing by,
and nothing distracts you. That point has to be remembered.
In concentration everything distracts you. If you are concentratedly
working on something and your wife starts talking to you, that is a
distraction. If your child wants to ask a question, that is a
distraction. If a dog starts barking in the neighborhood, that is a
distraction. If you are trying to concentrate, everything is a
distraction, because concentration is an unnatural state, forced;
hence anything can distract you.
But meditation is a natural, spontaneous flow; nothing can distract
you. That is the beauty of meditation: distraction is impossible.
The dog can bark, and the child can ask a question, and the
airplanes can go on flying in the sky making all kinds of noises,
and nothing distracts you because you are not concentrating at all.
From where can you be distracted? If you are focusing, you can be
distracted. If you are not focusing, how can you be distracted? See
the point.
Meditation knows nothing of distraction. That's its grace, its
beauty, its grandeur: nothing can disturb it. If your meditation can
be disturbed that simply means that you are concentrating and have
not yet tasted meditation. Meditation is so vast it can contain
everything, absorb everything, and yet remain empty.
The disciple asks:
The disciple must have thought about meditation in terms of
concentration. That's how it always happens: the master says one
thing, the disciple understands something else. That too is a
natural process. I am not complaining about it; it is bound to
happen, because the master speaks from one plane and the disciple
understands from a different plane. Something coming from the
heights has to come down to the darkness of the valley, and the
valley is bound to affect it.
What to say about a master and disciple dialogue when even in a
dialogue between ordinary people, when you are talking with people,
you constantly feel you have not been understood? Sometimes the more
you try, the more impossible it becomes, particularly when you are
intimately related with people. A husband talking to his wife, the
wife talking to the husband; the parents talking to the children,
the children talking to the parents. It seems there is no
possibility of communication at all. The husband says one thing, the
wife immediately jumps to some other conclusion. The wife says
something, the husband starts talking about something else. Their
minds are preoccupied. They go on misinterpreting each other. Hence
so much argumentation continues with no understanding at all.
It is very difficult to know exactly the meaning of the other.
You simply don't know about the French and their ways of lovemaking!
A French professor of sexology was talking with an American
professor of the same subject whom he met in a conference. The
Frenchman was saying, "There are one hundred ways of making love."
The American was puzzled, "A hundred?" And when the Frenchman
started relating all the ways, he was more and more puzzled. The
hundredth way was: the husband making love to his wife hanging off
the chandelier.
The American said, "There are a hundred and one ways to make love."
The Frenchman could not believe it; he said, "That is not possible,
because nobody knows more about love than us." But the American
insisted that there are a hundred and one. So the Frenchman said,
"Yes, okay, you start relating."
The American said, "The first is: the wife lying down on her back
and the husband on top of her."
The Frenchman said, "Wait! I never thought of that!"
Different people, different minds, different conditionings,
different preoccupations, different prejudices. So when you talk,
the words can't have the same meaning. When you say something, you
say it with one meaning; when it reaches to the other it has the
meaning that he gives to those words. This is so in ordinary
conversation - what to say about a buddha talking to a disciple.
The buddha is standing on the other shore, and the disciple is on
this shore. The buddha is awakened and the disciple is fast asleep
and snoring. The buddha speaks as an awakened one and the disciple
listens as one who is asleep. In his dreams he distorts the meaning,
he gives his own ideas, imposes his own concepts, philosophies, his
own conclusions upon the words.
Hence unless the master and disciple relationship is that of a deep
love affair, communication is not possible; it is impossible. Only
in a deep deep loving relationship, in deep intimacy where the
disciple is simply in a letgo, where he puts his mind aside and
listens without interfering at all, never giving his own meanings,
just listening attentively, not being bothered whether what is said
is right or wrong, or what it means, then only can he listen and
that listening can be a transforming experience. From the disciple's
side great silence is needed, only then can what the master speaks
be understood.
The disciple's question is:
He must have heard Bodhidharma talking about meditation again and
again, because in the East masters have been talking only about
meditation. You can ask any question and they will bring the subject
to meditation sooner or later - and it is going to be sooner than
later. You can ask about God and they will talk about meditation.
You can ask, "Who am I?" and they will talk about meditation. You
can ask, 'Who created the world?' and they will talk about
meditation - because the East knows the key.
Meditation is the key to all the mysteries of life and existence;
hence it is pointless to go on talking about other subjects. If we
can make the disciple understand what meditation is, then he is
going to open and unlock all the doors on his own, and he will be
able to see and experience on his own. And only your experience is
liberating, because only then is it authentically your truth.
Jesus says: Truth liberates. Certainly, truth liberates. Absolutely,
truth liberates. I agree with him, but his statement seems to be
only half. The full statement should be: Truth liberates, but the
truth has to be your own. If it is somebody else's truth, then
rather than liberating you it binds you, it chains you, it imprisons
you.
Bodhidharma says:
A simple answer, just the essential answer, but if you can understand the answer in an existential way, you will never be the same again. Simple words, but they can become a ladder to the other world.
See the whole world as if it consists of shadows. It really does
consist of shadows. It is made of dream stuff. Because we believe in
it, it gains reality in the same proportion as we believe in it. The
moment your belief disappears, the thing you believed in also
disappears.
You see a woman and you project beauty on her, and she looks so
beautiful, so golden, not of this world at all, and you fall in
love. And you are falling in love with your own dream, remember; the
woman has nothing to do with it. That's why lovers are thought to be
blind and mad, because nobody else can agree with them.
This is a significant statement - from a madman, of course, but
sometimes mad people make very sane statements. "Unless you look
through my eyes," Majnu says, "you will not be able to see the
beauty of Laila." In a way he is true, because the beauty is not
there in Laila, it is projected through his eyes. Laila is just the
screen on which he is projecting a certain idea.
Every lover is doing it. You fall in love with your own projection.
That's why it is always frustrating. If you happen to get your woman
or your man, you will be frustrated. Blessed are those who never get
their man or their woman, because they never get frustrated. They
always remain loving, they always go on hoping. Cursed are those who
succeed, because then it is very difficult to go on carrying the old
projection. When you come closer to the screen and you touch the
screen, how long can you feel that there is beauty? Sooner or later
you will see that there is only a plain screen, that you have been
projecting. Hence all lovers, if they succeed, become very
frustrated.
This world consists of our projections. In fact, when Bodhidharma
talks about the world, he is talking only about your projections. He
is not talking about the trees and the rocks and the mountains and
the stars, he is talking about your projections. A rose is a rose is
a rose - neither beautiful nor ugly. It simply is itself; you
project your idea.
Just a hundred years ago nobody thought that cactuses were
beautiful. But now they are 'in', and the rose is out. Now to talk
about roses looks a little old fashioned. If you tell your woman,
"Your face is like a rose," she will think you are just old hat.
Tell her, "You look like a cactus," and she will think, "Yes, you
are modern, up to date. You understand Picasso and Dali and modern
art."
People now keep cactuses in their drawing rooms, and before they
used to put cactuses only on the fences of their fields and gardens
to protect them. Now the cactus has entered the drawing room.
Suddenly the beauty is discovered. For centuries nobody had ever
thought - neither Shakespeare nor Kalidas, neither Milton nor
Tennyson - nobody had ever talked about the cactus and praised the
cactus. But now we have started projecting beauties on the cactus.
We are tired of the roses; enough is enough. After thousands of
years we have said everything about the roses; we are finished with
them. Nothing new can be said about the roses. All that could be
said has been said - and said so beautifully that there is no way to
improve upon it. And we have a great need to project. Hence fashions
change, because everybody has a need to project his ideas. Hence we
need new screens.
And the idea of beauty goes on changing. In every country there is a
different idea of beauty. What is beautiful to an American is not
beautiful to the Indian; and what is beautiful to the Indian is not
beautiful to the African; and what is beautiful to the African is
not beautiful to the Chinese. Different ideas.
Then is there something like objective beauty? There is not.
Existence simply is there with no adjective; there is neither 'good'
nor 'bad', there is neither 'beautiful' nor 'ugly'. Hence
Bodhidharma says: Drop liking and disliking. Stop choosing, stop
projecting, and the world disappears. Not that the trees will not be
there and the mountains will not be there, not that you will be able
to pass through walls. The walls will be there and the trees will be
there and the mountains will be there; everything will be there in
its absolute truth but your dreams will not be there at all. And we
have become so attached to our dreams - that's why meditation seems
to be difficult.
People are living in dreams. There are only two kinds of people in the world: those who live in dreams and those who live in awareness. To be a sannyasin means the beginning of living in awareness.
Bodhidharma says:
One goes on seeing shadows, dreams, projections, but remembers that all this is just dream stuff. Remembering it, deep down one remains utterly empty. The mirror never clings to any reflection; howsoever beautiful the face may be looking into the mirror, it never clings to it. The face is reflected. When the person has moved, the face disappears. The mirror remains empty, so does the meditator: he reflects everything and yet remains empty, because he clings not.
The second Question:
Bodhidharma says:
Bodhidharma's way of expressing it may seem a little strange, but he can't help it; he has to say it as it is.
The disciple asks:
Dharma, remember, ordinarily is translated as religion. That too
is not right. Dharma is not religion, religion is an attitude
towards reality. Dharma is not an attitude towards reality, Dharma
is simply to live naturally, spontaneously. To live in tune with
nature is Dharma.
That is Bodhidharma's experience, that is my experience too: to live
naturally, without interfering with your spontaneity, to live moment
to moment without being dominated by the past or the future is
Dharma. Bodhidharma says: Forget about in-dwelling Dharma and
non-dwelling Dharma. That is bringing your mind in, creating
categories. Live simply and naturally.
What a tremendously beautiful answer! What height, what depth! One would never expect such an answer - and so simple, so innocent: "When I feel hungry, I eat." The master is saying: Be natural, that is Dharma.
Bodhidharma says: To live naturally is to dwell in Dharma.
You need not be a Christian or a Hindu or a Buddhist, you have only
to be natural, just as natural as your breathing. Live your life.
Don't live according to certain commandments. Don't live according
to others' ideas. Don't live because people want you to live that
way. Listen to your own heart. Be silent and listen to the still,
small voice within and follow it. And that is dwelling in Dharma.
The third Question:
Buddha has said: The deeper you go the more you become aware that you are not the body, you are not the mind, you are not even the heart. You are only a being, a consciousness, a pure witness. Hence in meditation there is nobody who is a man or a woman. In meditation you are so deep in your being that from that peak all differences - biological differences, physiological differences - disappear.
Bodhidharma says:
The ordinary man lives in the body, thinking that he is the body, in the mind, thinking that he is the mind. The moment you start transcending the body-mind complex, you start becoming extraordinary. You start living on higher planes, and from higher planes things are totally different.
He was meditating under a tree; it was a full-moon night. A group
of young men came for a picnic to the forest. They had brought a
prostitute with them, and much wine and delicious food. They drank,
they ate, they danced. They drank so much that they forgot all about
the prostitute. The prostitute escaped, but she had to escape naked,
because before they started drinking they had taken her clothes
away.she had to escape naked,
because before they started drinking they had taken her clothes
away.
As the night was coming closer and closer to the morning and a cool
breeze started blowing, they became a little alert and they
remembered, "Where is the prostitute?" Her clothes were there, but
she was missing. So they went in search of her. There was only one
way for the prostitute to escape to the town and they remembered
that they had seen a certain man meditating under a tree. So they
went to the man, because she must have passed him. They were not
aware that he was Gautama the Buddha.
They asked Buddha, "Sir, have you seen a naked woman, a beautiful
woman, going towards the town? - because this is the only.possible
path. We had brought a woman with us; she has escaped, and she was
naked."
Buddha said, "Yes, somebody did pass, but it is impossible for me to
say whether the person who passed was a he or a she. Yes, somebody
did pass, but it is difficult for me to say whether the person was
naked or clothed."
The young people were puzzled; they said, "If you have seen the
person, you must have seen... because the woman was really
beautiful. You must have seen that she was a woman, and you must
have seen that she was naked."
Buddha said, "You have come a little late. I used to see women and
men before. And, of course, when you see a naked woman, how can you
not recognize? But those days are gone. I was in meditation, so when
somebody passes I'm bound to see them."
Buddha used to meditate with half open eyes. He always followed the
middle course.
There are three possibilities. You can meditate with closed eyes.
Buddha has said: Don't do that, because there is every possibility
that you will fall asleep.
With closed eyes the tendency of the mind is to fall asleep, to go
into a reverie, into dreams, because for centuries, for lives
together, closed eyes have become associated with sleep and
dreaming. So the moment you close your eyes, immediately it triggers
a process of sleep in you. It is very difficult to remain awake with
closed eyes, so Buddha has said: Don't do that.
The other possibility is to concentrate with open eyes - but that is
concentration. Concentration can be done with open eyes; you can
focus your eyes on something. But meditation is a relaxed state.
With open eyes, fully open eyes, there will be a certain tension in
the eyes.
The eyes are part of your brain: eighty percent of your brain energy
functions through the eyes. If your eyes are tense your brain will
be tense. That's why if you have to watch TV for hours, you become
so tired. You go to the movie and for hours you go on watching and
you forget to blink. That's why you become tired: you don't blink -
you can't afford to - so much is happening on the screen. You don't
want to miss any of it, so you drop blinking. Looking at the screen
for three hours, unblinking, is bound to tire your eyes and your
brain too.
Now recent research shows that people who watch TV for four, five,
six hours a day are bound to suffer some brain damage. There is
every possibility that they will become victims of brain cancer. So
much tension is bound to create damage to the very delicate and
fragile nervous system of your brain.
Buddha said: Meditate with your eyes half open; that is the most
relaxed state.
You can't see anything clearly; everything becomes vague. And that's
what Buddha wants you to know: that everything is vague, shadowy,
dreamy. You cannot fall asleep because you have to keep your eyes
half open, and you cannot be tired and tense because you are not
forcing your eyes to be fully open. Half open eyes is the most
relaxed state. Try it and you will see. Whenever you sit with half
open eyes, you will feel a great relaxation descending on you.
So Buddha said, "I was meditating with my eyes half open. Somebody
passed, somebody certainly passed, but I can't make any distinction
whether the person was a man or a woman. Because I am no more
identified with my own body, hence I don't think in terms of the
body with others too. And who cares whether the person was naked or
clothed! I am not interested in their bodies!"
Ordinarily just the opposite happens. When you see a beautiful woman
passing by, you start disrobing her - at least in your mind. You
start penetrating her clothes, you start visualizing her - how she
will be when she is naked. That's why a woman hidden behind clothes
is far more beautiful than when she is naked. For a certain reason:
when she is clothed, your imagination can imagine anything; you have
full freedom to imagine. But when she is naked there is no scope
left for the imagination. And man's sexuality is rooted in his
imagination. So whenever a woman is hiding her body you become more
interested in her, because you start imagining... the curves - which
may not be there - the proportion - which may not be there.
Clothes are very deceptive; clothes, it has been discovered, create
more sexuality in the world. It is because of clothes that people
are obsessed with the sexual. If clothes disappear from the world,
sexuality will be reduced to its natural proportion. If clothes
disappear from the world, nobody will be interested in pornography.
Pornography is interesting because of clothes. If people become a
little more natural - I am not saying go to your office naked, but
if people are natural then at least in their home they will be naked. At least with their children they will play naked in their own garden.
If children know their parents naked from the very beginning they
will never be interested in magazines like Playboy. Those magazines
will look stupid. But priests are against nudity. It seems there is
a conspiracy between the priests and the people who deal in
obscenity; there is a secret deal. Obscenity can exist only, and
obscene things can remain interesting only, if priests go on
condemning nudity. Allow nudity on all the beaches and soon you will
see nobody interested in nudity at all. And because imagination has
no more freedom, you will see things more as they are.
Right now you imagine, hence the neighborhood woman is more
interesting to you than your own wife. Your neighbor is more
interested in your wife than he is interested in his wife. It seems
everybody is interested in everybody else's wife, everybody elses's
husband. Nobody is interested in their own wife or husband. You
already know the whole geography of the woman or the man. You know
the whole topography. Now there is nothing to discover; it is known
territory. Imagination dies, and with imagination ninety-nine
percent of sex disappears. And it will be a great thing in the world
if ninety-nine percent of sexuality disappears, because then
ninety-nine percent of your energy will be available for higher
purposes.
What I am saying is bound to be misunderstood, is being
misunderstood. For years I have been saying these things but I have
been condemned for these things. And the irony is that if I am
listened to, I will prove to be the the greatest danger to sexuality
in the world. If I am allowed, the world can become absolutely
nonsexual. Sex will be there but sexuality will disappear.
Sex is a biological phenomenon, sexuality is a psychological
phenomenon. In a primitive society, where people are nude, there is
sex but no sexuality. And in cultured societies there is sexuality
and not much sex.
Buddha said, "Somebody passed, somebody certainly passed, but
because I am no longer interested in sexuality, I cannot say
absolutely, I cannot guarantee that the person was a woman."
Meditation means going deeper and deeper, closer to your being.
Being is neither 'man' nor 'woman'; being is simply transcendental
to all categories.
The fourth Question:
The disciple is still thinking in terms of the mind, in categories. When you think, you are always full of ifs and buts. When you know, there is no if and no but.
The disciple asks:
In the first place nirvana is never attained - it is your nature
- it is simply discovered, remembered rather. It is not attained.
And the Nirvana of an Arhat...
The Buddhist scholars divide nirvana into two categories. Scholars
cannot remain without creating categories; that is their whole work,
their whole function. There are two kinds of buddhas according to
the scholars: one is called arhat, the other is called Bodhisattva.
An arhat is one who attains buddhahood and disappears into the
ultimate, who does not care about others, who does not bother about
sharing his insight with others. And the bodhisattva is one who
attains buddhahood but resists the temptation to disappear into the
ultimate and helps people, who is compassionate. Now even with
nirvana the mind of the scholar has created categories; he has
created a division, a duality.
Bodhidharma simply answers in his own unique, inimitable way. He says:
These scholars are dreamers. A real seeker has nothing to do with ifs and buts. A real seeker does not bother about what happens after nirvana; first he moves towards it, knows it through his own experience, and then whatsoever happens, happens. One becomes natural and allows it to happen, one remains in a letgo. One does not go on thinking and philosophizing.
The fifth Question:
All speculative questions, questions out of the mind, irrelevant,
insignificant, meaningless, absurd. But they look like great
questions and scholars devote their whole lives to such questions.
In the Middle Ages there was a great controversy among Christian
theologians. The controversy is still there, undecided, no
conclusion has yet been reached, but the whole thing started looking
so foolish that the project was dropped. But in the Middle Ages for
three hundred years the controversy was such that the whole
Christian world was involved in it. The problem was: how many angels
can dance on the point of one needle? Now it looks foolish, but it
was not foolish to those people. And they were great scholars,
people who knew the scriptures and the subtleties of logic. For them
it was really a great question, because angels don't have any weight
and angels have the capacity to become big or small as they wish, so
how many angels can you accommodate on the point of a single needle?
Now you will throw the question into the dustbin, but for three
hundred years people remained concerned with it.
These questions are of the same type:
The six methods of being perfect.... And the buddhas
say you are already perfect, so there is no question of practicing
perfection. And one who practices perfection will remain imperfect;
his perfection will be just on the surface, deep down he will be
imperfect. He will repress his imperfections and cultivate a kind of
perfection and will remain divided. He is not truly perfect. You
cannot be anything other than that which you are. You are already
perfect. You are gods in disguise. You are buddhas asleep. Wake up,
and there is no need to practice anything.
In your dream you can go on practicing a thousand and one things and
nothing is going to happen. When you wake up, you will find that all
that effort was useless
Now these
There are no stages at all. Are there stages between sleep and awakening? There are no stages; either you are asleep or you are awake. It is a jump, a quantum leap. Are there stages when water evaporates? There are no stages. At ninety degrees the water is water. At ninety-nine degrees the water is still water although hot. At ninety-nine point nine degrees the water is still water although utterly hot. And one step more, just one step, one single jump, and the water evaporates. There are no gradual stages in evaporating. A man either is alive or dead; you never find somebody who is half dead or a quarter dead or one-tenth dead. It is not attained in parts.
In the second world war an English general shot down a German
plane and the pilot was severely wounded. The English general talked
to the pilot - he was also a general, so he gave him all the respect
due to a general of the enemy army. He was taken to the hospital,
taken care of, but one of his legs was so damaged that it had to be
cut off, amputated. The English general asked the German, "Can I be
of any help?"
The German said, "This will show something of great compassion
towards me if you could send my leg back to my home, because this
has been the longest desire in me - to be buried in my own
fatherland."
The English general said, "That is not a problem at all."
They packed the leg, sent it to Germany, to his home. But then one
of his hands had to be cut; that too was sent. Then another leg,
then another hand.
When the last hand was being sent, the English general asked, "Can I
ask you a question? Are you trying to escape part by part?"
You cannot escape part by part, and you cannot become enlightened part by part. It is not a gradual process, it is sudden enlightenment. But scholars need some work, so they go on dividing. Buddhas go on saying that it is a quantum leap and scholars go on dividing: there are ten stages of bodhisattvahood and ten thousand virtues. One virtue is enough: awareness. They talk about ten thousand virtues; there is only one virtue: to be awake. All else follows of its own accord.
The disciple asks:
Bodhidharma says:
Bodhidharma does not even bother to answer and explain. He is not
a philosopher, he simply puts the question aside. He says: Don't
talk nonsense. You are dreaming, and not only are you dreaming: if
there is somebody who thinks that he is at the ninth stage of
bodhisattvahood, he is dreaming too. If somebody thinks that he has
fulfilled all the six paramitas, all the six perfections, he is
dreaming too. In fact, the person who thinks, "I have attained
buddhahood," is simply dreaming, because buddhahood is not something
to be attained.
When you reach that realization, you simply become aware that there
was nothing to attain from the very beginning. From the very
beginning you are a buddha - you have always been a buddha - you had
just fallen asleep, you had just forgotten who you are. It is only a
question of remembering, of recognizing, of rediscovering.
The last Question:
Bodhidharma must be feeling very sorry for this man, because he goes on asking the same question in different ways. It is the same stupidity - called scholarship. Again and again he brings the same question in different forms. But the masters are always patient; they have to be, otherwise it would be impossible to work with the disciples.
Bodhidharma again says:
A simple statement but with great potential. The moment you start thinking that you have become enlightened, beware. If you think you have become enlightened then you have not become yet. If you think you have become a buddha and you start proving that you have become a buddha, know perfectly well you are not yet. A buddha needs no proof; he does not argue for it, he simply knows it. And there is no way to prove it. He knows that it is not something great that he has done; it is not a big deal. It is a simple phenomenon: he has looked in. He could have looked any time, any day, and he would have found the buddha inside.
Bodhidharma is right:
Remember these words of Bodhidharma, let them resound in your
being, because you will dream these things many times.
Many people go on writing to me: "Osho, this has happened. Is this
the first satori or the second or the third? I have experienced
great light. How far am I from buddhahood now?" Every day people go
on asking.
Remember Bodhidharma. Next time such a question arises in you and
you start writing a letter to me, don't send it to me, just write on
top of your letter: "I am dreaming."